House of Tieom

New site.

2008-07-13T19:40:00.000+08:00

I am moving to a new home.

houseoftieom.multiply.com

See ya! :)

I am so full of drama.

2008-06-29T14:52:00.003+08:00

Million dollar question:

"Tim, aalis ka na ba talaga?"

Yes. And more yeses. I have been asked this question a gazillion times, and yes, the answer will be and forever will be, the same.

The bigger issue is when, not the question that I already have the answer to. My bosses were kind and helpful enough giving me a million and one advices, and yes I am taking it all seriously. Kaya nga nandito pa ko. I am still patching my watak watak na dreams, not until I am uber ready to take off will I leave this lovely job of mine.

Am I tired?

Everyday.

Everyday whining is so not healthy. My skin is already going against me. Thankfully my face is a no-pimple zone, and I thank Pond's for that. My emotional aspect is seriously dropping to zero, and my IQ, my god nahahawa na sa masasamang ispiritu.

?????

I really have to fast-pace everything. It would hurt a lot not seeing everybody and doing what I love to do. Pero I know na anywhere I go, my V family will always back me up. I love you guys. :)

My Dream Book, with Snooky.

2008-06-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

Yup, this is one of 'em. I have my burn book, and I have my dream book. This is where all my dreams, plans in life, things I want to do and achieve, all of that drama, it's all here. Anyways, latest update, me doing what I do best. Papampam. Ewan ko I must be rally diseased, or as Ms. Monch said, abnoy talaga ko.

Piece per piece, all by self-study, I am trying to build a dream I had since I was young. Yes, I am rushing everything, pero I'm being careful din at the same time. I don't want to fail. Hell no, no room for that. No room din for distractions. Basta right now all I am focusing on is achieving things that will help me become the Great Timtastic.

How?

No idea.

Tira-tira! Emmo of the month. Happen what should, this is why I am really planning everything so ever carefully. I am in ways touched and moved by comments of certain people, like (hindi ako nagyayabang) how truly gifted with my hands, they're like Midas, turning everything into gold, that I have a very bright, end of the tunnel moment as per Boss Sunday which, coming from a person you hardly know, means a lot, how creative I am in doing what I do best, magpapampam, and a hell lot more, anyways, they are really motivating, it sucks you out of the darkness period and gives you a certain perspective in life. It drives you. Very much. And it means a lot how much people gives such nice comments on my works. How I wish I could be the best, and that I will strive hard to achieve.

God I hope everything turns out excellent. Better than great, better than what I expect. Better than what the poeple expects.

Fasizzle-dizzle

2008-06-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

I am today wearing the cabbage rose. Ewan ko, it was raining so hard last night, Frank was really depressing I wasn't able to go out talaga, not to mention me having to cancel my haircut appointment because of the stoopid brownout and uber heavy rains. It's really stoopid.

Anyways back to the rose, I could not sleep well last night and all I could think of is that I have to go to work today with a humongous rose on my chest.

And I did.

Well, not as humongous as we'd expect it, pero big pa rin. The first one I did was big, Tarzan X big. Imagine pinning a rose on Godzilla's chest, ganun kalaki, pero siyempre I was confused. Be the self-proclaimed fashionista that I am...or give myself a little bit frenzy pero still reputable look sa office.

And so I ended up wearing the second rose I did, the tolerable one.

As per Daria, Kuya Roy noted that I am so gay when I dress up.

F**k up. :) Who cares.

I must be out of my mind.

2008-06-20T00:07:00.002+08:00

I am.

I am planning on leaving a place I consider my home.

Crazy huh?

somebody kick me hard in the a**. Cause I suck.

Hoo-mama.

2008-06-15T21:41:00.002+08:00

I am really doing it. Unbelievable.

I am not sure of what I am doing, I am not sure if this is the bestest plan ever, pero I know one way or the other I can make it work. I have never been more afraid in my entire life. Ho god I am more afraid than fear itself. And really right now I do feel like the former kid who gets to be bullied around by the big, tough-looking guys, and all I can do is cry. I cry a lot. Because I fear, because of loss, because I choose a different path, but most importantly, because I have a lot of guts to do things that are most of the time, crazy.

Blame my spontaneity.

Damn it. It sucks. I am such a stupid person.

Some more time to do what I've got to do. Ends do mean new beginnings.

This is saddening.

2008-06-09T15:28:00.003+08:00

Damn it, of all the people I could view on my frenzy list it has to be you pa. Funny thing is that I've clicked on a Beyonce youtube and it started playing that stoopid, stoopid 'Still the one I want to....' (Stoopid Shania Twain for writing that song).

Reality is, I still wanna be with you B. I miss you a lot. More than life. More than what I've got right now. Stoopid, stoopid love. It sucks bigtime. I must admit you're looking prettier than the usual. Made me miss you even more. Stoopid goodlooking people makes me miss you more and more everyday. Ho sheesh this sucks.

I still don't understand whatever happened while we were sleeping. No idea at all how it could end this quick. Stoopid me for pushing people to their limit. Stoopid me for pushing you to be somebody you're not, stoopid me for believing na I could create a difference, even stoopider for me to believe you are the one.

Stoopid, stoopid, stoopid.

B, if you could only read this, all I want is you. Having you is like being in Nirvana, I need not to look any further for anything else. I could have been a better person. We could have compromised. We could have reached for our dreams.

But now, for the four years or so that has passed, you still have the power to instantly make me cry. Cry a lot. And a whole lot. And it sucks. I'm such a stoopid person. I could never love anybody else but you. Please come back...

I know I can.

2008-06-08T16:05:00.003+08:00

I can do it. :) I'll show the world what I've got.

I know I can do it. :)

2008-06-08T15:55:00.003+08:00

Power of positive thinking.

Tantrum of the week.

Mantra everyday.

I know I can do this.

Goodbye to some, hello to my dream! :)

I can do it.

I'm moving on.

2008-06-08T15:35:00.005+08:00

Things are about to change in a few months. I do not know how long it will take pero as of last week I am already starting to patch up my dreams, piece per piece. I have no absolute idea on what I am doing pero I do believe I can do it.

God have mercy on me.

I am risking my life for this one. Thanks guys for all the support. :) You guys give me strength and confidence like no one has ever before.

Love you all.

Kabaklaan.

2008-05-25T00:50:00.002+08:00

1 in the morning sa office and I really have to upload this. Italian Festival's coming to Makati ladies and gents and I hope hindi kami magfail. (Well anyways, most of the time we don't, or kami lang ang nakakaalam. :)

What you think of the graphics? My new desktop pic. Lemme hear what you have to say.

You must be my everything.

2008-05-11T21:31:00.005+08:00

One of 'em days. Stupid days when I can't seem to get over one stoopid emotion. This is really depressing. Must have eaten something so bad I felt like this the entire day. Ho-sheesh...

I miss you, I miss you, and I love you. I am already 23 and you are the second person who ever made me feel this way. And it's crazy because I really don't want you to go. You make my sun go up and down, my butterflies, the only person who ever made me melt. I want to be with no one else but you.

EL--OW--VI--IH.

You're my favorite color, my favorite donut, my favorite white chocolate, yeah, better than Reese's, better than heaven, tastier than chocolate mousse, healthier than any veggie that I could think of, healthier than breathing per se.

You are everything that I've ever dreamt of. The personification of my must-haves and want-to-have. I have fallen so head over heels, and its sooper crazy. The only regret that I have right now is that I've never kissed you instantly when I felt like it, I never told you right in front of your face of how I really feel, and I never expressed the things I wanna do with you. Damn this I am crazy. I know that you are even more complicated than I am, yet I feel that I can change all that. I know I can. You are so like me, indifferent.

And I really like that about you.

And you really must be my everything.

And I must be really crazy to the bone.

I love you Jjamps even if you intend to not converse. I wish you could see this.

Good night.

Still in love with you.

2008-05-11T14:00:00.006+08:00

Tried to contact one of my past's last night to go out with me next week, wala lang bonding and re-connect try to see if we could still make it work. Unfortunately, I wasn't replied by that dorkface whatever your name is stoopid. And then I remembered how achy you made me feel when I was the one who needs comfort and a hell lot of honesty.

And It sucks.

Pero I was kinda expecting to change all that hatred into something else. Again I failed. Yeah I'm willing to forgive Jamps pero sana you'd realize soon on whatever happened. I miss the days, I miss us. A lot. Today's my day-off pero I feel like going to your work to bring you lunch or pastries to keep you going. Doesn't matter if you want to thank me or not, seeing you happy and fulfilled is more than a gazillion thanks and kisses. You are the reason I keep on going and fighting, making sure I become a better person as you told me I would be. And I hope I could bring the days back. Rewind and bring you to my journey to Makati.

I miss the days I wonder why, why, why...of all people why you why me why us why this and that...pero you taught me that sometimes, you don't have to use adjectives and nouns to know how one is feeling. Sometimes it just shows. Gaano ka man ka layo ramdam mo pa rin.

I really miss you Jamps even if you're sooo stoopid you spell Jiampong with a double J, even if you were sobrang stoopid when you had a hard time conversing with those Amerikanos, even when you were soo stoopid you thought burritos were lumpiang sariwa, even when you have one pair of shoes, two sets of denims and that stoopid stoopid jogging pants you really like wearing with your flip-flops, despite all that, I still do love you. A lot.

Stoopid guy here willing to forgive.

Please comeback....

Return of the Comeback.

2008-05-11T13:47:00.003+08:00

Hopefully this week would be stress-free. I really do hope so kasi I have plans of putting up another red flags denoting my comeback sa pagiging addict sa trabaho. I wanna do a week without any sort of event, gusto ko lang magpaganda ng floor ko. Gusto ko talaga makabawi kasi our team really ran out of time doing Mother's Day interior and window, plus a lot of event.

I miss those days na pagod ka pero you still have the strength to go on kasi you are loving what you are doing. Hay naku. We'll see, we'll see.

One of 'em days.

2008-05-11T13:19:00.003+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to all Mommies out there! :)

Especially to mine!

The look of a hardworking man.

2008-05-04T11:56:00.005+08:00

This is the week. Sobra, Makati is the place to be.

Hours of sleep per day: 3
Number of times ginising ng Big Boss: 3
Number of times napressure: EVERYDAY
Number of times pinagalitan ng Big Boss: PRICELESS

Now there's the answer to your question why I look like crap every single day.

Monday: Mother's Day Concept Making
Tuesday: ToyWatch Launch @ Rustan's Makati
Wednesday: ToyWatch Pull-out
Thursday: Pampanga Display
Friday: BMW Set-up
Saturday: BMW Pull-out

My god! And the sleepless nights doesn't end there! There's Alabang pa this week. Ho wow! Sana mabawasan lang ang phone calls ni Big Boss. Huhuhu....

Slimming pills.

2008-05-04T11:40:00.003+08:00

I was given four pills by Ms. Ana, hopefully it works. So far, hindi ako gutumin. Not sure if that's a good thing pero hey, as long as it works. I really wanna lose a lot of fats, I wanna wear a lot of more fab outfits and I can't work it out with the body I have right now.

Come on give me some!

Working late.

2008-04-29T00:00:00.003+08:00

Amazingly our office has internet connection na. With Kuya Belog, Kuya Ro, and Ezra, rushing on Mother's Day set-up. Grabe pero siguro hmm...the entire time doing my project I was listening to Destiny's Atlanta Concert. Haha..Plus there's Basement Jaxx, J.Jackson, Beyonce, The Bucketheads, John Mayer, and a whole lot more. The Barakos naman were hitting on porn flicks.

Haha! Love it! :) On our way home. Bye lovely world of internet connection.

This is an advertisement.

2008-04-27T15:36:00.000+08:00

NO TO DOGS !!!

B-O-N-U-S!

2008-04-27T15:11:00.003+08:00

My god can't wait 'til next week!!!

Stay the hell away from me.

2008-04-27T14:49:00.002+08:00

I want all negative vibes and groups to stay the hell away from me. There are like a lot of 'em out there and all they want to do is make themselves feel superior, superior ng wala naman sa lugar. It's really stoopid na they tend to believe na they are really something very much vital in this lifetime, whereas in reality wala naman silang ginagawang maganda. All external beauty, none naman in the interiors. Really stoopid. How to spot them? They tend to re-group when you scream the word 'SIPSIP!'

Come on hindi ako high school to not know what you guys are uo to. I may look tanga and naive pero believe me, I see you. I do hope Karma stikes you fast and bite you hard in you motha f****n' nuts and balls, as in soooo hard your gonna feel it in your next lifetime.

Hmph! Amoy maaasim naman kung umasta kala mo kung sino. Do none naman. Pakitang tao lang.

STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM ME!

Fashion killed the man.

2008-04-21T13:29:00.005+08:00

I am really tired. Eversince I've moved to Makati I have been such a changed man. Masungit, bugnutin, mainitin ang ulo, lalong nagagalit, laging nakikipagtalo. I am sure na it's not my fault kasi hindi naman ako marunong magalit eh. So if I do get mad it's really something else.

I forgot how to eat on time.

I've learned how to survive eating chocolate to sustain my hunger and thirst and depression.

I've learned how to talk to somebody with ears closed.

I've trained myself to text my team ten times per minute.
'San ka na?'
'Re-group, re-group!'
' Meet me sa Young Adults'
'And tagal...'
'Ilang oras break mo, ten days?'
................Tim VMD CALLING...................
'Asan ka ba?'
............Tim VMD 2nd ATTEMPT..............
'Hay ewan'
'Basta bukas magkita-kita tayo ng 3 kahit Linggo!'

Me and my toes.

2008-04-21T13:18:00.002+08:00

It hit me a while ago na I am so alone. I think good karma's not working very well this year, I have tried my best to be there for those who needs me, unfortunately I wasn't expecting not to get those back.

Damn me for being a loser. What is a friend anyways. I think I only have 3-5 of those. Even your cousins and in-laws stabs you in the back. What the fi-ack? Nobody told me na tsismis are supposed to be done even for those that you are blood related to. And alam ko lang kasi mag-comfort. Why can't they do that na lang instead of eating me for lunch.

Damn life.

ATTENTION:

2008-04-13T21:42:00.002+08:00

For your information.

You have got to change at times to command change in your surroundings. I have zero idea if I am being a disciplinarian or a slave driver, pero I do want to make a big change in what I do because I love what I do.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T.

Yee-haaa!!!

2008-04-13T21:23:00.003+08:00

I have been told the bestest news ever and it will surely change my views and perspective in my career. Lord does listen, sometimes all you have to do is wait. Merong isang taong nagsabi sa kin (who was drunk that time), 'bakit yung kaibigan mo nauna pang umangat eh hindi naman sa pagmamalaki mas matagal na ko at mas experienced' (and in fairness, he is really good at his craft). All I do remember saying that night was that my friend is really motivated and loves what he does. He gives a hundred and one percent of his everything, and siyempre being lasing, ang banat sa kin, 'bakit ako hindi?'

Of course me being the understanding and non-argumental type of person chose to shut the fi-ack up. Pero in my mind I was screaming na the difference is that my friend and moa does not mind fame, wealth, favoritism, and all that, all that's in our heart and soul is that we want to make a change. We love what we do without expecting anything in return. We basically do what we love to do and beyond.

Morale is, do what your heart tells you to do, with passion and honesty, no whines and cries about people being unfair to you, and you'll be rewarded accordingly. As I always say, God does listen. In mysterious ways. And He rewards those who deserves it. Patience, and a whole lot of love.

I am a living proof. :)

Ha-choo!

2008-04-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

And I am deeply sick, stupid Subic hope it did not give me that kind of flu that birds bring. What bothers me bigtime is how the hell will I go to work tomorrow na ganito ang condition. Stupid, stupid, stooopid. I really hate it.

Anyways have to get myself together ulit, dahil last Friday si Ms. F and Mother Roma are slightly sick na and hopefully makapasok pa rin kaming lahat. Damn global warming it's giving everybody a disease. Argh!

I need a break.

2008-04-12T14:52:00.006+08:00

Went to Subic for work. Kainis no?

I always go to the most extreme places and for what...para magtrabaho. Ho-sheesh. Anyways it was sooper uber init. As in I can't stand it. Good thing I was wearing nipis shirt and knitted over. It was kinda kakaloka nga lang daw kasi red pants with the green shirt. Har! I was expecting people to be dressed that way in Subic, totally out of the box.

I guess I was wrong. :)

Mid-year pay.

2008-04-12T14:19:00.008+08:00

Things to do, stuffs to buy...

1. Destiny's Child

Live in Atlanta DVD

It's the shi-at, I always view the concert on youtube.com (thanks for the creator of the site, it's the bestest). Anyways try viewing Beyonce shaking her a*s off performing Baby Boy and Naughty Girl, the trio extending their version of Lose my Breath, singing with the original casts of Soldier, and going acapella on If (a song that I could really relate to to date). It's the bestest concert album I must say they have really pushed their capabilities to the extreme and has stretched their talents. No wonder they've entitled it Destiny Fulfilled.

Love it.

2. The Beyonce Experience
Live in Wembley DVD

Of course since I wasn't able to go to the Manila Fever concert, I should at least have a preview of how things has been kasi I've heard the show was sizzling hot. And I really love B's style, she's a real performer. Gotta love it. (And Get me Bodied performance is so fasizzle dizzle.)

3. Tim Tam has to get his groove back.

Buy new clothes, new shoes, new accessories, since I have grown out of love I have to grow out of the things that I have gotten used to as well. New look, new pals, new everything. Spa, haircut, hair color, tan? Lahat.

And of course,

4. Treat my family to a hella good time.

I may be a disfunctional member, pero I do love my folks and peeps.

:)

I am missing somebody.

2008-04-06T15:53:00.003+08:00

My Jjampong.

: (

Styling.

2008-04-06T15:34:00.002+08:00

Yeah, you have got to love it. And I don't and never ever ever ever will let anybody dictate what or how I should think because I have faith in myself, faith in what I can do, and faith that there are people who still cares.

Thanks to all who supported me. :) ...and continues to support me in everything I do.

Sittin' in the rain. By myself.

2008-04-06T14:40:00.005+08:00

And I never imagined life could get any worse.

This must be a punishment or some sort of dilemma that I want to, again, runaway from. Yeah, it sounds like I'm beng a copycat, pero I have my own version of the Gucci Gang, pero mine's a hell lot cheaper by a gazillion dozens. Let's call 'em, the Balucci Gang. (har! : )

Anyways, these are the kind of people who doesn't seem to care, the kind of people who thinks they are BIG time but actually compared to an uneducated person, they are mere insects, even pests to the society. They do not only infect daily routines, but people as well. They tend to hate everybody, even they're own troop, behind their backs, they stab everybody who gets in their way, even those who only want s to make a difference. They are easily intimidated but they do not show it. They tend to talk BIG in front of people, but if deciphered, all that they say are all nonsense. They are those who talks a lot, but actually what they say are the same exact replica of what one have said. Waste of time. They tend to show people that they are responsible and considerate and talented people, and they know it all, pero believe me. I'll show you what I've got. Get ready to be intimidated kasi I will never stoop down to your level, never kiss on your feet, never follow a command, never comprehend what you have to say. Because you are all nonsense.

I'm leaving.

2008-04-01T20:21:00.003+08:00

Minus my Jjampong.

I am now flying to Makati store, Ladies Department. I can't wait, but I can't leave my excess baggage behind. Sobra na raw ang timbang sabi sa luggage area, kelangan ng magbawas.. This sucks. I hate you so much for lying right in front of my face, pero I still want you back. I suck. God ewan ko ano nangyayari sa kin.

Goodbye Gateway. I will truly miss you. It has been such a ride.

This is for real.

2008-03-30T13:10:00.003+08:00

From flab to FAB!

Global Warming.

2008-03-30T12:32:00.004+08:00

Global warming refers to the Earth’s air and oceans gradually heating up to a point that disrupts balance, a problem that is continually getting worse. It sounds like a problem too massive for any one individual to take on, but it really isn’t. Combining any few of these suggestions can make more of a dramatic effect than most people understand. The goal is to emit less carbon dioxide into the atmosphere.

Step 1:Drive less. Take bikes, walk or carpool whenever possible.

Step 2:Consider investing in a hybrid or electric vehicle to help prevent against further global warming.

Step 3:Replace all the lightbulbs in and around your home with energy-efficient fluorescents that use fewer watts for the same amount of light.

Step 4:Clean or replace your filters monthly.

Step 5:Choose energy-efficient appliances when it's time to buy new ones.

Step 6:Decrease your air travel.

Step 7:Wash clothes in cold water and line-dry whenever possible.

Step 8:Use a low-flow showerhead, which will lessen the hot water used but not drop your water pressure in the shower.

Step 9:Cut down on your garbage—buy fewer packaged materials to prevent further global warming.

Step 10:Unplug electronics when they are not in use, because they still take up energy. At the very least, turn items off when they’re not being used.

Step 11:Run the dishwasher and clothes washer only when you have a full load, and if available, use the energy-saving setting.

Step 12:Insulate your home better, and don’t forget to repair or replace worn caulking or weather-stripping. Insulate your water heater.

Step 13:Buy recycled paper products and recycle as much of your waste as possible.

Step 14:Bring your own reusable canvas grocery bags when grocery shopping.

Step 15:Plant a tree.

Step 16:Have an energy audit done on your home so you can find the trouble areas and fix them.

Step 17:Use nontoxic cleaning products.

Step 18:Shop locally for food. A farmer’s market is an excellent place to visit. And choose fresh food over frozen foods. Fresh takes less energy to produce.

Step 19:Keep your car tuned up, and check tire pressure often to save gas.

Step 20:Eat less meat and more organic foods in your diet to do your part in preventing global warming.

This is how I like it.

2008-03-30T11:55:00.003+08:00

'....do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand? And would you get them if I did?

No you won't. Cause now you're gone...'

Moving on with life.

I give up. No more lies, no more tricks, no more dramas and I'll surely end this loneliness and endless cries. I am right. I have no right to fight with people who doesn't belong to me. And so I'm gonna move on. I do know how to forgive, pero I never forget. And I only forgive when people asks for it. God...

It's really over. You got me crying a lot. Part of the plan I guess. Your diabolical plan to squeeze the juice out of me. And for whatever reasons, I am never gonna come back to where we were. Never. All I can do now is hope for the best, and try even harder to emancipate. I'll rest now and leave. Cause for a moment I almost lose all of my breath trying to catch up on you. But finally, all the feeling besides anger and frustration are all gone. I think breathing would be a hell lot easier this time.

'Boss, I couldn't make it to work today.' XOXO Tim-Tam

2008-03-24T13:49:00.002+08:00

I am super may sakit today and didn't make it to work. Damn so bale that's less three days na this payroll week (two day holiday stupid plus today), and it sucks. Fever got me so badly. My nose was sobrang oozing yesterday because of stupid sipon. This morning I woke up super hilo. Damn. I really hate this.

Anyways thank you Bioflu kasi it's the med that got me going. Been taking Tylenol kahapon pa pero no, walang nangyari. BioFlu should be more advertised than those imported brands na wala namang naitulong sa kin. Stupid.

This I promise.

2008-03-24T13:25:00.004+08:00

When the loneliness is over...
When everything has gone back to where they've started...
When the pain is gone...
When I can finally move on with my life...
When the shi-hatsus has left...
When I can start going out again with my peeps minus the whines...
When my heart has stopped skipping triple times...
When I start feeling no need for therapy and diversion...
When I can finally say I'm already fine and has moved on...
Then...

........I'm gonna find another you.

Emotions.

2008-03-21T16:51:00.004+08:00

And again, I am going to attempt to stay away from people who doesn't seem to care. Sabi nga ni Gelo, my friend from Oakley, why spend time on people who doesn't want to spend theirs for you? Har...all these time I've wasted trying to fool myself na things could possibly happen, na siguro one day magising siya and realize na mahal niya ako...pero no. I guess that will never happen. I guess all Jjampong wants is a piece of what I could offer. Every little piece actually. And I have grown tired of the endless thank you's that seems so robotic. Pwede na nga niyang gawan ng template eh. It's so chaka.

Anyways I hope this time my project emancipation would work. Not make Jjampong feel neglected, or for you to feel na this much you'll miss, kasi really, if I can keep on doing what I do to you today forever, then yes I will. Pero sometimes we need to move on and grow. I have made my entire world grow into yours. I am that pest that you couldn't get rid off. That li'l something something that aims to deceive your world to falling into mine. And I am sorry.

Pero mostly, while my heart is mending, I will remember the good times. The times I believed na there's a possibility. That shine of hope that makes me cling on. That shine of happiness that makes me feel na I would soon be complete and search no more. All this to make me stronger and better.

And yet, I will definitely miss you. A lot.

Your Royal Highness for SALE.

2008-03-20T11:16:00.006+08:00

Need a date? Pasttime for those killing time hours?

Then look no further!

Anybody interested to hook up with this person, please do not, and I repeat, do not hesitate to contact this blog address. Or you could send chocolates and flowers to:

House of Tieom

Rustan's Department Store
2nd Fl Gateway Mall
Araneta Center

Promo duration is good until supplies last.

This is 'the' day.

2008-03-20T10:42:00.002+08:00

Ho man it's amazing how small business districts has remained open on a Maundy Thursday. Well, at least those that offers cheap amusements such as internet shps, that skimpy stall in our kanto that sells uber clean balot, and penoy qwe-qwe, Mercury Drug, youTube, that lamesang tindahan sa palengke that sells my favorite Pinoy delis such as ginataan, fresh lumpia, etc. etc. etc. Ho and yeah it's amazing how my parlorista is open todate so I can get a haircut before I go back to work on Saturday. Just in time for our Children's event. (They're giving me a free bunny out of 30.) Hmm..can't wait. Pero wala akong yellow shirt (Supposed outfit of the day)...huhu...Magpapaka-colorful na lang ako nun.

Thiz iz the day! (Kahit uber heartbroken.)

The House is about to breakdown.

2008-03-20T10:17:00.004+08:00

The million dollar question:
'How can you argue with a person who is technically not yours?'

I have zero idea.

All I can do now is start putting fine lines in each marble tile in Gateway. Lines that defy the meeting of two impossible people, people who cannot be determined by Physics nor Anatomy, people who cannot be determined by Math, nor any genius could ever define. All I know now is that I'm in a mess.

I do not know what magic it is that Cupid curses upon people that makes us sobrang vulnerable when we get struck by l-o-v-e. Isang smile lang kahit walang sorry-sorry okay na kayo ulit. Give you a piece of bracelet from his territory then you get back to square one, the part where you are head over heels in love with that person. Ho god I'm so gonna die na soon...

I hate this. I wish I could blame somebody, pero wala eh. Well, except me. Have to blame myself. I wish I could just die tomorrow and re-live next year.

Ho man...please come on over.

Hate that I love you so.

2008-03-16T16:06:00.003+08:00

And I so wanna move on. One day I hate you, the next I love you, then I'll start hating you again, but you have this certain magic over me that makes me fall for you the same way I did trip and fall (and broke my head for that matter) when I first met you. I do not know what you did to me, pero what you did to me I wanna get rid off. Take the spell off me puh-lease. I have suffered enough. And I have bared my soul to you, but still....I feel so hopeless. And the shame. TMTH (Too much to handle).

Tambourine.

2008-03-16T16:00:00.000+08:00

Gotta love Eve, from 'Who's that gurl' to this...

The way I are.

2008-03-16T15:14:00.003+08:00

Why does everybody expect something from one that is so not you?

Sometimes people think alike, and most times we are regarded according to what the society has imposed about us. Monotony shouldn't be carried through our values. It should have been long ago diminished and extinguished along with t-rexes and triceras. But really what's bothering me is the fact that if you don't act what others tell you to be, you instantly become a nobody. And it sucks. Biglang your entire world fall down and tumble upon your feet. Sucks big time. It's hard to tell your heart to move on, forget about the past and dream bigger, because at times we are meant for a hell lot of bigger things than what we are at the present.

For selfish reasons I am to stay where I am at the moment. Not until I get what I want will I again talk about moving on. Few more months. A few lonely months. Then I'm gone. To live life to the fullest. Be who I want to be. Be there where I want to be. To continue inspiring and spreading the love. To share what I've got to the world as God planned. And be the bestest person that I can be. To live individually. Fight my own fights. Set rules that nobody could ever defy with. Set a trend that is so contagious. To truly reveal what the term sovereignty really means and why it has been privileged to every human beings. To prove that one doesn't have to be boxed in and enslaved by norms and standards to truly understand the definition of discipline.

Hindi ako plastic na tao. I only show what I really feel inside. I am this little pest inside your dreams waiting to burst out. I defy rules not for personal reasons, but to imply that we are all unique and gifted with something something. So why not show it? Show who you are, why you are, and what you are. It's either that or live in a world where people all looks the same. Then I'd really love to be a Sims character. Each built with attitude. Each built with personal style. Each built to connect one being to another. Each built to complete God's plan.

Does this make me selfish?

Hope not. I only want to be heard.

Diversion.

2008-03-15T15:38:00.006+08:00

I have been sewing these past few weeks. From beads, to ruffles, to adding all sorts of Martha Stewart-ish crap to my polos.

Stupid Cupid got me lovin'.

Panain mo na lang ako to my grave.

If

2008-03-15T14:29:00.005+08:00

For almost a month now I haven't entered a single entry on my burn book. I have been so paralyzed by love that I have lost my mojo, well, plus the fact that I am so ashamed of myself and I have no plans of burning and scrutinizing myself . I so wanna die.

I wanna fly to another country. Work there for years, forget about love, run away from it all. Change my name, my id's and cards, have surgery, create a new me, start liking new dishes, ewan...

Ho god I am so pathetic.

If you don't know Jjampong, now you know you're gonna miss my love. If only all things are made clear to me. If only all things were spilled and not hidden. If only all things are expressed not oppressed. I have loved you this much I almost lost myself. Which is supposed to be good right? I have this theory in life kasi na sometimes one has to lose his way, change path, take the other road, the one that is dark and filled with thorns and mud, that road that people usually defies to take. And why choose that path? To be found.

I want to take a detour to find out what God really meant for me. Kasi I know in the end a lot of good surprises are well kept waiting to be unraveled.

Bite me.

2008-03-04T20:14:00.002+08:00

This is confusing and distracting and disappointing and it makes me mad, no worse than mad, and it makes me wanna kill somebody for no particular reason. I am such a stupid lame a*sh*le for falling so hard that I have (as expected) ended up hurting myself. Badly. And you know what's worse is that I could not blame that person, kasi technically, wala namang 'kami' in our relationship. All we have is our kindats, and hi's, and hello's and harot, and all that. More than that, nope, I don't think so. This is crap really I hate it wala akong masisi kundi sarili ko.

I wish I could text you right now and beat the hell out of you for being such a jerkface. Nobody realizes talaga what they got 'til it's gone. And I hope people who has that mentally could die right here, right now. As in. Die. And rot. Then die again, a thousand and one deaths. I hate you for lying. You stupid freak. I do not get it why people have to make such lame stories para pakagatin ka, pero in reality, kahit gaano siya parang katotoong pakinggan, they're all lies and stupidities and madness and palusot and crap ang shi-atsus and...argh! I am so MAD!

Somebody puh-lease throw a meat tenderizer to my face para magising na ako puh-lease!

This could be you.

2008-03-04T20:11:00.003+08:00

Thanks to Eds of pasawife.blogspot.com for this psych thoi-thoing.

January 01 - 09 ~ Ass
January 10 - 24 ~ Slug
January 25 - 31 ~ Cockroach
February 01 - 05 ~ Parasite
February 06 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
February 15 - 21 ~ Skunk
February 22 - 28 ~ Snake
March 01 - 12 ~ Ape
March 13 - 15 ~ Cockroach
March 16 - 23 ~ Slug
March 24 - 31 ~ Parasite

April 01 - 03 ~ Ass
April 04 - 14 ~ Snake
April 15 - 26 ~ Slug
April 27 - 30 ~ Skunk
May 01 - 13 ~ Slug
May 14 - 21 ~ Bullfrog
May 22 - 31 ~ Cockroach
June 01 - 03 ~ Slug
June 04 - 14 ~ Skunk
June 15 - 20 ~ Ass
June 21 - 24 ~ Ape
June 25 - 30 ~ Parasite

July 01 - 09 ~ Slug
July 10 - 15 ~ Ass
July 16 - 26 ~ Bullfrog
July 27 - 31 ~ Parasite
August 01 - 15 ~ Ape
August 16 - 25 ~ Slug
August 26 - 31 ~ Skunk
September 01 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
September 15 - 27 ~ Parasite
September 28 - 30 ~ Ass

October 01 - 15 ~ Ape
October 16 - 27 ~ Skunk
October 28 - 31 ~ Snake
November 01 - 16 ~ Cockroach
November 17 - 30 ~ Parasite
December 01 - 16 ~ Ass
December 17 - 25 ~ Ape
December 26 - 31 ~ Bullfrog

If you are an Ass : A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble, and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little gr! oup of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Slug : Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what mak e s you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Cockroach : Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfull! y deriv e work from people. You love being loved and when you receive your share of limelight from s omeone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... Hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

If you are a Parasite : An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Skunk : You are near to perfect and nice at heart! . The e xamples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give, and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

If you are a Bullfrog : You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of fri ends! and go od at consoling pe ople in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Snake : You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the w! ay you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are an Ape : Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are

2008-03-04T20:11:00.001+08:00

January 01 - 09 ~ Ass
January 10 - 24 ~ Slug
January 25 - 31 ~ Cockroach
February 01 - 05 ~ Parasite
February 06 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
February r y 15 - 21 ~ Skunk
February 22 - 28 ~ Snake
March 01 - 12 ~ Ape
March 13 - 15 ~ Cockroach
March 16 - 23 ~ Slug
March 24 - 31 ~ Parasite

April 01 - 03 ~ Ass
April 04 - 14 ~ Snake
April 15 - 26 ~ Slug
April 27 - 30 ~ Skunk
May 01 - 13 ~ Slug
May 14 - 21 ~ Bullfrog
May 22 - 31 ~ Cockroach
June 01 - 03 ~ Slug
June 04 - 14 ~ Skunk
June 15 - 20 ~ Ass
June 21 - 24 ~ Ape
June 25 - 30 ~ Parasite

July 01 - 09 ~ Slug
July 10 - 15 ~ Ass
July 16 - 26 ~ Bullfrog
July 27 - 31 ~ Parasite
August 01 - 15 ~ Ape
August 16 - 25 ~ Slug
August 26 - 31 ~ Skunk
September 01 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
September 15 - 27 ~ Parasite
September 28 - 30 ~ Ass

October 01 - 15 ~ Ape
October 16 - 27 ~ Skunk
October 28 - 31 ~ Snake
November 01 - 16 ~ Cockroach
November 17 - 30 ~ Parasite
December 01 - 16 ~ Ass
December 17 - 25 ~ Ape
December 26 - 31 ~ Bullfrog

If you are an Ass : A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble, and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little gr! oup of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Slug : Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what mak e s you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Cockroach : Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfull! y deriv e work from people. You love being loved and when you receive your share of limelight from s omeone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... Hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

If you are a Parasite : An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Skunk : You are near to perfect and nice at heart! . The e xamples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give, and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

If you are a Bullfrog : You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of fri ends! and go od at consoling pe ople in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Snake : You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the w! ay you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are an Ape : Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are

2008-03-04T20:11:00.000+08:00

THIS IS AN IMPORTANT ADVERTISEMENT.

2008-03-02T12:22:00.003+08:00

And this could change your life.

Ever heard of the brand H.O.T.? Yup, it stands for HOUSE OF TIEOM and I basically enhance your old clothes for you, funking it up, giving it a new groove, and letting the world know what it means to have your sexy back.

So there, ifever your interested, ya know where to find me.

(Costs depends on the alteration and materials that will be used, PLUS the name H.O.T. will be embedded on your clothing.)

Will try to show some of my stuffs here asap. Hope to get clients round here! Tell your friends na rin if ya wanna turn into instant fashionista wannabes. :)

Bored.

2008-03-02T12:05:00.002+08:00

And that's all there is.

Hay what to blog...hmm...the weather seems like crap...work still sucks...I'm not feeliong very well...and I am to go out in a while sa Shang...(trying to get a li'l action.)

I miss my Jjampong, I miss my Jjampong, and I defintiely miss my Jjampong.

Haha...

I love Jjampong. :)

Confessions of a Self-Proclaimed Fashionista.

2008-02-24T15:16:00.006+08:00

I miss the days when I look like I am heading for a street party, pero in reality papasok lang ako sa office.

I miss the days na mukha akong nagtatrabaho sa Makati (with the ties and pull-overs), pero in reality mag-aayos lang ako ng merchandise sa Gateway.

I miss the days na I could go out and stun everybody by wearing, at the very least, four colors of the color wheel all at the same time para lang mag-edit ng graphics.

I miss the days na I could wear any sort of jacket I like kahit sobrang init sa labas.

I miss the days that I could go to work and wear plaids, white pants, red pants, any pants I want as long as they cover my bee-hind.

I miss the days that I look like a blast-from-the-past (with the retro look) para lang magbuhat ng kung anu-anong fixtures.

I miss the days that I wear neon rubbers over my favorite red skinnies para bulagin ang sarili.

I miss the days that I get to wear my FAVORITE (and signature Tim look) leopard-print Vans over my funky maong pants para lalo pang sugatan ang aking sugatang paa. (That leopard shoes does kill me. Pero who cares, a little price for beauty.)

I miss the days na ang dali-dali kong hanapin kasi I am the nag-iisang makulay na tao sa store. (Now all they have is my hair to spot.)

I miss the days that I get to wear my pearl suspenders para pampa-effect sa plaid pants ko. Ho god when will I ever use them pa kaya especially now na one day na lang ang day-off namin...

I miss the days when I get to wear scarves na mukha kong Koreanovela, pero in reality magwa-wiring lang naman ako ng kung anong sirang platform sa trabaho.

I miss the days when I get to layer myself with every hue possible to lighten up my mood.

I miss those days na I look like a neon pop-art advocate to lighten up people's mood.

I miss those days na I looke like preppy para kunyari smart ako and extremely intimidating.

Ho God I miss me. A lot.

4-1-1

2008-02-24T14:46:00.008+08:00

1. Coke Zero.

I love it! It does taste like a regular coke minus the calories. It's sweet, pero you are quite sure na you're not gaining (well, lesser than the usual). I'd say it's a no to Diet Coke and double yess to Coke Zero. And they are having a promo in Gateway. I think if you dine and drink the product you'll be able to join the promo...anyways will check it tomorrow.

Love Coke's biggest surprise ever! (And besides, I don't like Pepsi.)

2. Maroon 5, in Manila!

Ho my Lord I swear I really wanna see them live! Talaga especially now that I fell in love with their hits! Ho god who do I have to have sex with just to get backstage passes? Tell me, tell me puh-lease!!!

You have got to love their album they're the best. (Plus really down-to-earth unlike any other bands that has soared-high in this industry and so does their ego.)

3. I am so dead in la-hove.

And I do not know why. Siguro that's really what happens when you truly found that perfect persona for you, everything else just diminishes and all you could do is just, ewan, maybe surrender yourself to the higher beings and let love lead the way? Makes sense? Haha..I am so innn...love! And what's funnier is that I really don't mind if that person feels the same, or if that person doesn't reciprocate the feeling, hey, who cares. Janet taught me how to wait a while and not rush things over. I do believe this is better than doing anything else that I know I will regret in the end.

So there. I am such a freak. :) and I do love you.

4. FREEDOM!

Alas! Had a deep, son and mom talk last Thursday regarding my current status in life. As usual I made drama, exaggerated a bit, and finally in the end, mom understood how I really feel about my life. And again I do not want to disclose any personal information na muna kasi it's really vital and may offend people, pero really I am excited to do what I've got to do. I miss my freedom and I miss being me. I cannot live in a world where people will try their best (even behind their backs) to box me in, cage me, or at the very least control who I am, for I have been such a vulgar person and I show it when I want to. I'm an artist not a slave for crying out loud. I have my own personality and I do not have the slightest concept of ever changing it for the sake of people being able to say na I declare my discipline and loyalty and whatever good value you people wanna call it, pero ako, papakatotoo lang. Puh-lease. I am an advocate of all things true. No pretentions, no hoo-has. Bakit ba people wants to control other people all the time? Can't somebody shoot them dead?

Basta ako, I scream FREEDOM! (And soon, it will be mine.) Thanks ma.

Hating life.

2008-02-17T15:52:00.002+08:00

I am beginning to live that cliched life whereas people are regretting their existence, and then they start questioning God, then gradually, they start to hate Him. Or should I say we? Anyways I really have no idea what I've done, pero all I know is I am in deep shi-atsu with where I am heading for this lifetime. And I know I've inflicted this fiasco upon myself pero why? I want to know why. I have tried my best believe me to be the perfectest person na I could be. Or maybe that's the dilemma, I try so hard on doing things that doesn't fit my lifestyle...

Hay ewan. I need to go to rehab. For a month. Then start missing life so I could start anew. Need a buddy. Anyone?

Cebu. And more.

2008-02-17T15:25:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the tagilid na picture. :)

I went to Cebu with Ms. Monchit for our regular store fixing duties. Was there last February 12-15, yez, I left Manila on my burthday, spent it there with the Home MM's (Ms. Doray, Masd. Adora & Ms. Emi) whom I really love. They've treated us for dinner at CAFE LAGUNA (who deep fries the bestest lechong kawali ever!) (ho and yeah, courtesy of Ms. Trish of Home so thanks din Ms. Trish kahit ililiquidate mo naman to...har! :), pero I was really touched kasi hindi kami close pero they bought me a banoffee pie at Red Ribbon (no liquidation processing could ever accomodate this). It was sobrang sarap and it was my burthday, so it really meant a lot. Wala lang I really love them sobrang motherly figure. I missed my mom a lot sa trip pero the three of them was able to make me feel like home.

Anyways the trip was really fun, it was ages ago when I last went on an airplane, high school pa ko nun and we went on a family trip for HK, and I really love flying. We were suppose to do merchandising and styling lang kaso pagkadating doon, my god, may re-lay outing na mangyayari...eh ako and Ms. Monchit lang ang andun...freaky sobra kasi home floor in Ayala, Cebu is sobrang small pero sobrang compact ng spaces...my god talaga. Thanks to the people who went on overnights with us kahit kakatapos lang ng madugong inventory nila last Monday. So far, wala pa rin namang hinihimatay or nagiging anemic. Har! :)

I LOVE CEBU! (Especially the complimentary buffet breakfast at ParkLane Hotel). The people are nice, and parang very malinis sila. Although what's funny is that they made me realize na I have become such a superficial person na living in the metro. For instance...

Cebuano: '....pangga punta tayo sa mall....'
(You don't have to mention the name kasi iisa lang naman ang mall doon....ay may SM na pala. So dalawa. Pero still.)

Cebuano: '...ano isusuot mo sa birthday ni Taningga?'
Reply: '...yung suot ni Sarah Geronimo kahapon sa ASAP, ang ganda nun!'

Cebuano: '...gimik tayo!'
('GIMIK', aka RATSKY. My god.)

Cebuano: '...taga saan ka?'
Reply: '..jan sa susunod na kanto, Sa San Ising Street.'
(Weird street names, can't they come up with something better like Forbes?)

Cebuano: '...ano ginawa mo pagkagaling sa trabaho?'
Reply: '...umuwi na ko sa bahay. Natulog.'
(Unbelievable lifestyle.)

They are sobrang simple talaga I swear you would notice the difference in less than 7days. My god.

Pero I love Cebu. And our hotel kahit sa standard room lang kami bi-nook. Would definitely go back. :) Thanks Cebuanos! Maayong bantag sa inyong ta-nan! (..or whatever. :)

I'm an ADVOCATE.

2008-02-10T19:44:00.000+08:00

I am really hating this. Ang daming fakers and pretenses this lifetime. When did the word 'trying hard' ever existed ba? Wannabe's were popularized by the Spice bi-atches pero I think ngayon talaga kumalat ang lahi. I really hate this, people are showing you duo-personas to impress you or whatever, pero for whatever reason, PUH-LEASSE, stop faking me right in front of my face before I smudge your royal hi-nee (or however it's spelled) in a bed of thorns that I will specially arrange for you guys. Please this is an ad for stopping pretenses. There should be a party for this, a club where everyone could be theirselves. Walang feeling mayaman, walang feeling elegante, walang hoo-has or fu*ckeroos.

Please let's all work together stopping fake people. It' becoming a disease so contagious it's gonna hit generation X. SAY NO TO WANNABES!

Ho man....

2008-02-10T19:20:00.000+08:00

I am going to Cebu this coming Tuesday 'til Thursday, and it sucks kasi one, 12th is my birthday, 14th is Valentine's day. We're leaving on 12, first flight, and leaving on 14 last flight, so what the heck kind of time ba do I have pa to celebrate my dates. It sucks talaga, first birthday kong malayo sa pamilya (yeah well last Noche Buena was my first time din naman to be away from my family). Pero really, pati Valentines. Whew! Naman.

I am praying for the best. Sana may makilala ko dun, and hopefully makakuha ako ng kadate. I don't want to be the biggest LOZER of 'em all. To all Cebuano people out there I do hope you could read this. Me and my pal Ms. Monchit's gonna invade your world so be prepared. And I do mean it. Magugulantang kayo sa amin.

Har!

Ho this sucks! On my burthday? Come on!

Get Me Bodied.

2008-01-16T01:07:00.000+08:00

Bubbly.

2008-01-16T00:45:00.000+08:00

Me, in love?

I was hanging out with Daria kanina and he compared both our heart situations. His is possible, mine is not. He could expect some, while I can't. His is attached to reality while mine, full of pretentions. On my part actually (and not in a bad way.) You see, I am so much in love with this person whom I could not love because of instances that hinders our success. Everyday I pray at night hoping nagbago na isip niya, maybe today you'll fully understand what true love really means. Maybe today you'll wake up realizing how much I care about you, and makes you kinda wonder why. You are more than good-looks and personality. You are that person that makes me believe that true love could exist, maybe not as intense as I've expected it to be, but you made me believe in that special 'silence in the atmosphere' that people get when they find the one. And I never told you this, but yes, sometimes things are really not meant to be said. I am not being torpe. I am not chickened out at all. I am being true lang to myself. Na I couldn't have you this lifetime...

I hate Daria for being correct that whole time. In my world you are so alive. But really, it's me losing my attachment to the rest of the world's world. I wish I could express how much I love you, pero I can't. It's better this way. Left unsaid. Wherever you go, asleep or not, near or far, just a simple thought of you makes me smile and shiver. Please I beg you...stay with me forever...

Soulmates.

2008-01-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

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What do you look for in a partner?

Someone whom you can flaunt along the streets. Someone who could protect you whenever you need it. Someone who gives you what you need when you need it, at the right needing moment. Someone who wants you so bad it makes you feel so alive and gives you a feeling that you are an enormous part of this superficial world.Someone who tells you from beginning 'til end that you are beautiful and that you are a rare find. Somebody who gives you that feeling of comfort at times of need. Someone who annoys you in public thus making you look like a lovable and infamous person. Someone you'd flirt around cute guys to entice them to drool over your hot, sexiness.

No.
No.
No.

And more no's.

I want someone who'd tell me na I exist. I want someone who'd tell me he loves me for who I am, for what I am, wherever I am. Someone who could withstand my puzzled and very much confused mind experience. Someone who can stand me when I nag and when I talk a lot of none sense. Someone who stand right next to me even if I am wearing every color in the color wheel, and all hues that are not even yet invented. Someone who'd see me not as a clown, but as a prince in the making. That someone who could change my perspective of things, you who could convince me that this world is not made from perfection, this world has a lot of evilness, and that I am not to entrust just about anybody. That somebody who wouldn't worry me when my back is far away from his. That person who could make me believe.......

That true love exist.

What do you look for in a partner?

Someone who could give you more than a five reasons why you are beautiful? Someone who could make your knees tremble without knowing why? Or someone who has it all?

Sometimes I just wish love is asexual and non-logical. Having no perspectives, no norms, no reasons. Just pure emotions. No one to dictate what or why you should do things when you need to do it. No rulebook ever written that would command you how to make a relationship work. Not letting Einstein affect Cupid when you have found that special person that makes your heartbeat triple times per second. Not knowing why you love someone, not knowing why you miss someone, not knowing why you want to spend your entire life with this persona. Maybe we are really living in a fictitious world after all.

So what do you really, really look for in a partner?

That very person whom, when you are at your worst, sees your best. Someone who sees queenliness in your peasant form. Someone whom you do not understand why he or she accepts you, catches you when you fall, accepts your full personality, and still loves you for your indifference. Someone who makes you wonder...why, in my ugliness and full of imperfection life do you love me? And that's why I love you...

The DO.

2008-01-14T19:59:00.001+08:00

I got over my bangs na (people keeps on quoting it as the emo-funk look, whereas I call it the whatever-look-i-just-want-to-look-good-lang look) and yeah, I had it chopped na so I could go back to my spiky-look (or as Ate Dora of Children's quotes it, 'Son Gokou'). Yeah, I wanna look good lang when I go back sa work after my 1week leave. Sana may naka-miss sa sobrang kaguluhan ko noh? Wouldn't it be funny na may makakamiss sa isa sa mga pinakamagulong tao sa mundo? Haha... How I wish.

Anyways I want to dye my locks...what color kaya...Ayoko ng chocolate brown nakakaitim...pag light naman baka magmukha kong jologs...hmm... Hay ewan. Siguro I'm bored to death lang talaga. Yeah I think so din... I'll just deal with my hair na muna and try to work it out.

Anyways, I've had a blast today. My pamangkin Tin-tin who's now 2 went to our house kanina kasi everybody's out in theirs. She is one of a kind, very much talented and very much matalino. I am so proud of her. I kept on imprinting on her little mind to call me 'Tim Yup-yup-yup!', and yeah, she remembers until the end of the day. (Although most times she calls me 'Tim Cap'). Can't blame a kid for trying. Anyways besides her I was watching cartoon lang the whole day. I love the 'Rugrats' talaga, pero nothing compares to the 'Simpsons.' Whoever created them must be sent to heaven and grabted to go back to earth again and again.

Love 'em.

Tomorrow I'm gonna start my journey into the outside world. I'll bring somebody a bag of lunch (NOTE TO SELF: Favorite food ~ Mushroom burger). Then I'll just leave that sa locker niya and I'll head to Makati to have lunch with my girl pals ~ Boss Ferds, Jess, and Ms. Monch. Then I'll drop by Tower to visit my super twin Jobelle whom I miss soooo much. Plus there's see how they're doing na back there. I mean, come on, I know na I am not in the position to judge anybody, pero I just want to see who I'm competing with. It's all for the heck of having a healthy competition ya' all, nothing judgmental or insecuring thing. If there's such term.

Ho yeah, another note to self, find the bridal girls and Manuelito. I miss them so much!

To a week of kapok-pokan! :)

Can I die na?

2008-01-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

I am in deep s**t.

I'm in love.

I swear, not kidding. I do not know whatever happened to the Tim who doesn't believe in true love, or any form of love except for sexual pleasure, and sexual pleasure alone. I've got none idea where the heck that guy went, pero I do sure hope he comes back soon. I am severely damaged. Loving someone who is impossible. My journal's full of pages dedicated to you, your favorite food, our conversation that forever will haunt my hopes and dreams to be with you, and that very first time you asked me to call you up kasi you need a favor.

God I'm crazy.

L-0-8

2008-01-13T16:16:00.000+08:00

1. Victoria Beckham on No.1 List?

What the fi-ack? I was watching MyxNews last night and they've released this news na some guy in the U.S. placed Ms. Poshy-two-shoes on the no.1 spot for the worst dressed celebrities for the year 2007. Anyways I think that guy is psychotic, imagine Ms. Vivky's in with Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton, and (last year's no.1 spotter) Britney Spears. I think whoever makes this ratings goes for people who makes it big this year, and fortunately, our leading lady was making a blast from going to NY, becoming a releasing her own famous fashion icon, releasing her own scent, and of course, the very much infamous reunion tour with the Spice Girls.

I mean come on. Anybody who'd put somebody like Victoria in the list of the worst Dressed Celebrity List must be really demented. And superficially living their freaking abnormal life. So there. Sue me.

2. Ms. Joyce Jimenez on GMA, DANCING.

I was stunned for the very first time by Joyce kanina sa S.O.P. whereas she shook her derrier like crazy, and she looks hotter than ever. And for real, mas nagmukha siyang bata ngayon. Or is it because she kinda looks like Marian the Marimar girl...hmm...hhhmmmmm... I like Joyce better. But she must improve her acting skills. A lot. (She's good in comedies though.)

3. Margaritas and more parties.

Yes much very much awaited leave (a.k.a. s********n, hahaha! :) has arrived and I am not the type of guy who'll just sit around and whine and feed my belly to death, nope, not this lifetime. I am in the process of 'fully-booking' my entire week starting tomorrow, Monday. Let's see, tomorrow is pampering day. At night, I will learn how to bake, the idiot way, then bring some sa store for judging. On Tuesday I'll go visit Boss Ferds @ Makati, plus the Bridal girls that I misssss soooo much (like hell), and hopefully and magulong-magulong si Manuelito whom I haven't seen na for ages. (Friend san ka nagtatago? Para kang si Britney Spears.)

KIDDING!

Haha...anyways makikipag-lunch date lang ako with Boss Ferds Team, and do a lot of catching up since I wasn't able to attend our general meeting the day before our Big Boss left for the states. On Wednesday, I think day-off crush ko nun, so I'll try to find a way na makalabas kami. And that's the only plan for the day. (Plus bake some more.) On Thursday I'll be going out sa gabi 'til kingdom come. I swear I am not coming home alone. Maximum number of peeps to tag along: X-infinity. I'll ask them to teach me how to bake. Har! :)

On Friday I plan to have a total make-over in preparation for the return of the comeback. Then sa gabi, RAMPA! Come on, it's a Friday night, I can't go out on a freaking Friday night on a work day lalo na't may pasok kami ng Saturday's. Then the day after I'm gonna spend it with my girl pals: Snooks, Cenz and Joy. Finally, it's about time. the whole day is so dedicated to them. Then last full show. On the last day of my vacation, I'm going over to Alvie's house with my Gateway pals, hopefully my crush could make it. It's her 25th b-day btw, so she really wants to celebrate with a lot of people. I doooo hope somebody could die drinking, then I'll take you home.

Har!

FULLY-BOOKED!

I have been such a BAD BOY.

2008-01-01T14:07:00.002+08:00

I have become the worst person that I could be in front of my family. And it's all because of my sister's stupid debut. One, I don't have time to organize it all kaya Michelle has been doing most of the work. Two, I do not have enough resources, a pc for example to make the invites for one, and props that would make the set-up bongga (kaya I'm gonna rent some from our office.) I hate it lang talaga when people would reply '..ay nakalimutan ko...,' '....ay yun ba yung kailangan?,' '..pwede ba yun?,' '...ay nasave ko sa ibang file..'

I'll tell you what, that's plain stupidity and I do not entertain stupidity, it's not even on my vocabulary. Wala na kong ginawang iba kundi pagalitan kapatid ko kasi she's all palpak, she doesn't know how to expect the unexpected, or be a girlscout to put it straight up. Never siyang handa. And I hate that, nadedelay lahat, I hardly have the time to do this stupid debut tapos dinedelay pa ko ng stupidity. Damn it. I really hate this. Somebody give me a pill or something.

Happy new year guys!

2007-12-31T17:19:00.000+08:00

Another year, another year.

God this is the roller coaster year of my life. From leaving Home Team, going to Gateway, to Tower then back to Gateway, grabeng whirlwind ang changes. And I do hope that thru the course, I have made a name for myself na. And I am wishfully thinking na this year, things would even get better and brighter for me. Kasi whatever and wherever I am right now in my career, I am sobrang enjoying. Pero sometimes lang talaga, you have to lose yourself and change directions to find your way back.

And I do hope na when I find my way back, whatever it is that I've left would still be the same pieces that I have always known them to be.

Happy New Year. Have a great one. :)

I wanna cater to you.

2007-12-31T17:02:00.000+08:00

One of the dreadfullest days of my life, the first week of January. January 3 to be exact. Haha...I remembered that day after Christmas when I had a date with B sa Iceberg, and you do not want me to pay. Laging K-K-B. Funny. Kasi you do not want that feeling of utang ng loob. I had an Oreo Ice Cream, you had a glass of Strawberry. I will never forget. I gave you this stupid wallet na binigay sa kin ng kapatid ko pero I could not use with a stamp pad that says Capricorn. Haha two years and I still could recall it like it was yesterday...

And what about that time na I told you na I need help sa thesis ko and I really have to meet you sa kanto ninyo pero in reality I was gonna give you a pan of ube that dad made, plus suman. You said thanks then I went with you sa barbershop in SM North. Top floor I forgot what's the name. Two years, pero still in my heart...

I really want you to be happy. Even if I did not become a part of your so-called life.

I really miss you...

Come on over.

2007-12-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

Me in love?

I wish. Haha... :) I want to be, pero I always end up loving people who can't be loved and the likes so what do I do? Nope, I didn't try to avoid them, in fact I've flirted some more and made myself believe na I can get them. Why?

I have no idea. You tell me.

Sometimes I want to die.
Sometimes I just want to move on.
Sometimes I want to believe na love is asexual.
And that love will come on over...

But then I go back to part one. Dying. Three years of hoping B would come back, pero all I get is heartaches...and the fictional life that true love does exist.

I wish I am a psychic and that I could transmit thoughts into people's mind and let them know how I feel. No how I really, really feel. I always protrude visual communication towards everybody na I am all good, and always will be. Pero deep inside I am hurting. And all because of that stupid Cupid.

Sometimes I want to kick somebody so hard it would make Cupid's butt go soaring 'til kingdom come.
Sometimes I want to kick myself so hard so that I could wake up to this reality.
Pero most times I only hope for one person and one person alone to kick me hard, and give back your love in exchange...or as we did have.

If only B knows.

All I want is you.

Addict ako.

2007-12-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

I am crazy over youtube I swear I can't stop posting all of my favorites I swear. Grabe bakit ngayon ko lang natutunan to? Gosh I sobrang need Tarzan101 I swear.

Anyways embedded are some of my favorite Basement Jaxx hits like Romeo, Red Alert, and some Spice Reunion clips. I am loving it! :)

This you gotta love.

2007-12-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

Another song on my fashion dreamoir.

My Ultimate Love.

2007-12-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

Someday I'll have a fashion show playing this song forever and ever and ever.

Ho my Lord more VIDEOS!

2007-12-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

I love this song reinvented by Mel B. (aka Scary Spice and Timbaland)

More Spice?

2007-12-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

My god their voices have really evolved. And I am sobrang loving youtube.com. Iz the zhiet! :)

See this!

2007-12-23T16:58:00.002+08:00

This is really funny! I am currently hooked to youTube.com and it's really a lot of fun pala. Har! See this! :)

This is KADIRI to the MAX. (No Sugar :)

2007-12-23T16:28:00.001+08:00

Ho my Lord I'm dilemmanizing a dilemma I swear. I know this is gonna be sobrang kadiri and jologs pero who f*cking care (ako...konti) Anyways, Amang told me kahapon na he has a friend selling iPhones MADE IN CHINA worth P4,500.00...imagine, iPhone. And I am this close to being tempted. I wasn't paying that much attention to the news kasi before regarding China made phones, how bad could they get ba? Extremely? My god....Or siguro I'll save up na lang and not trade my Walkman phone noh? Yeah..siguro ganun na nga lang para kahit masira man siya, di pa rin ako nagsisi binigay ko W710i ko.

Damn China for copycatting everything they see.

Mr. Alcoholic.

2007-12-20T15:30:00.000+08:00

Who me? Fafatayin ko nagshabi niyan! Humanda kahayo! *HIK!*

Har! Seriously I think I am on that path. And I could not manage to be there kasi I am already growing, and I don't want to gain anymore. I think me being a loner provokes my alcohol intake. It's my anti-depressant. It makes me believe na somewhere out there there's this somebody who'll be there for me. (Yeah right, para ihatid ako sa sobrang kalasingan.)

Anyways can't wait for my next party. After my 10-gallon hat comes my crown. Bwahaha! I love costume-y outfits talaga.

Impossibleism and parties.

2007-12-20T14:45:00.000+08:00

I could not believe na it's been like 3years na since I've met this special person and until now I couldn't stop thinking about the things that happened on our week long na pagkakakilala. I of all people knows better na if you fall in love, matatalo't matatalo ka. Main reason why I chose being a pokpok na lang instead of being the partner you'll love forever, and then what, in the end magiging desperate housewife ang drama ko? No way. I'd rather keep this singleism for life and have the bestest time of my life. The next time na I'll find my boo, I'll definitely be the first to laugh, and the last to cry.

Come on, fall? In love? Impossibleism. Imagine being attached to one person for the rest of your life. HA! Patawa...

Deep down inside I know na in a way I am denying all that I am feeling. I've poisoned my mind na I choose to be single kasi it's way better than ever. Getting to meet people everyday ng walang pumipigil, getting to do what you want to do ng hindi dapat nagpapaalam especially me na sobrang spontaneous, I will never trade those to changing my status. But then again, there's B. B who up to this date reminds me na this world could be a better place. B who taught me na not everybody is what or who I think them to be. And I thank you for that. I really do wish one day I'd still, still, still get to meet you ulit. I wish I could fool myself even better na that dream of mine could still be achieved. You and me in perfect harmony.

Last night I went to 2Christmas parties, both got me drunk so hard up to this time na I am burning my emotions I could still linger on the taste of alcohol rumbling inside my veins, and don't even get me started on the hilo and sakit ng ulo. Thank god for spelling analysis on blogspot it made my life a hell lot easier especially ngayong hindi ako makatingin ng diretso, everything's sobrang doubled. I went to Rustan's Gateway's Christmas party (took the advantage of going there na kasi I am sobrang sure sa Summer na naman mangyayari ang Christmas party ng VMD due to tons and tons of work). It was held @Joey's along Araneta and I had a lot of fun. I get to be who I want to be. Was not suppose to go there pero when I've heard na they are gonna give a Liz Claiborne bag for the 'Most Outrageous Dressed Person of the Night', ay pota ibang usapan na yan especially now na I need to give a lot of gift for my family. Went there with this extra gigantic striped rose on my left chest and a super colorful 10-gallon hat. And yeah, no doubt. Walang ibang contender. Sobrang unanimous decision. Bwahaha! Yabang! Anyways, I did have fun.

Fun except for the part na everybody has a date except me. And it sucks. If they are not married, they'd be there with their gf's/bf's, and the next in line are the pangit people who can't get a partner. Ho my Lord ayokong masama dun I swear I'm gonna die...Hindi naman siguro ako ganun kapangit I swear....

Then comes Aruba Bar in Tomas for my Christmas party with my collegemates. Supreme fun pero super late na kong dumating to the point na kakaunti na lang sila dun and pinagsasarahan na kami ng bar. Pero the bar people was really nice. Plus the fact na they think na I'm somebody who seems like somebody. Anyways I've missed them all. A lot. Sana one time paggising ko estudyante ulit kami. That would be the day. Sana 4th year college ulit, the year I've met B....

Margaritas @ Pier 1.

2007-12-16T18:51:00.000+08:00

Had a mini-reunion with my gal pals, sila Donna, Ja-nice, Yanyan, and Donna's friend that I am really fond of, Gracey. Sobrang bading siya and sobrang funny talaga, and sobrang pareho kaming pokpok. It was her and me lang and bumaba sa bar (last na si Jans dumating) kasi nobody seems to want to fuh-lurt and dance with a bottle of San Mig in one hand. And yes, as expected, tinamaan na naman ako ng kalasingan. Although it was mild lang ha. I even managed to (after partying all morning) do A HELL LOT of naughty stuffs only I know, and still reach home in one piece. Not to mention me having to kaladkad a paperbag of Rustan's and Topman that I have recently purchased.

Went there around 1 and ang weird, the party was suppose to start pa lang then pero nag-uuwian na yung iba. And the CR creeps me out everytime kasi guys are lined up sa toilets peeing talking about the girls (and the girls are sorted out per school) na they want to 'sibak.' They are sobrang barako. I will never forget the line: "Pare para namang may ayaw sa ating sumibak ngayong gabi diba?'

Pokpoks.

Anyways I still had fun. Went home alone pero at least I was able to bond with my old pals and new ones. LJ was the only one I could recall, and Mayang. Donna's bestfriend.

Hay...good times, good times.

And then I began doubting myself.

2007-12-16T18:17:00.000+08:00

I do have a bold and very brave fashion sense but then I began asking myself, does my style fits me?

I could not imagine people filling and fitting in my shoes, from the red pants, to the leopard print shoes and the neon shirts, the blings, everything. I do consider them all unique...but then again, do I only make myself look ridiculous? Hmm...midlife crisis' hitting me early this lifetime. I could still see myself when I become a lolo na I'll still be wearing the pearls that has been turned into a suspender, the pink shoes, the vests, lahat. But will somebody please lease please let me know....

How do I look?

Tim, the Dreamer.

2007-12-02T20:55:00.000+08:00

As our nearing departure from the place that I use to call home, I already am having ambitious ambitions on what could be shifted from my life na rin along with the shifting of the moving away movement.

I have every plan of starting my fashion business right where we are going to move. The house has 5 rooms, there are like 3 of us and one master for my folks, so basically there's a spare room which (and my mom totally agrees with the idea, sarcastic pero still she said yes thinking '..here we go again Mr. tim the Dreamer..') I plan to transform into my very first boutique. I want to study fashion design for a while yung mga tipong ilang months lang and voila you're done, then buy my stuffs and start making clothes for men that are totally...me (or in layman's term: out-of-this-world, or as Ate Virg of Fashion Accents has said: '...Tim..you're sooover talaga...'). Of course for ladies din, pero I do not see myself making dresses. Ewan ko it's so not me. I do love cocktails though.

Anyways I plan on painting the one wall in leopard, the other in neon green, the other in zebra, and the last one in super hot pink. Haha...I really am ambitious. Let's see where my dreams take me. If I have to loan a huge amount sa bangko so be it. I will get this thing going and I aint gonna stop til I get what I want.

Thiz iz really it.

Reunions. And hell.

2007-12-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

We're having a reunion right this moment which is sobrang impromptu kasi my tito flew in from states and is about to leave in a few. I was expecting a really small one, yung tipong living room lang namin ang magiging venue, pero no, again the Lagman Association has once again proved na ang laki ng population namin. Thank heavens for three bedrooms and a big garage or else, malamang matulog ako sa kabilang bahay, which is so not me.

Anyways I have to get out of the house or else everybody will get to have the Tim Experience, very masungit, sobrang not laa-ving it. Deprived of all my golds. Good thing I was able to control my irritation kanina and hey, I was kind enough to allow people inside mi casa (a.k.a. my room).

Aargh!!! Main reason why I hate reunions. Mostly are fakes, mostly are wannabes, then some are naggers and braggers lang. Good thing I have Michelle. Whew! Families. Why do I have to have a complicated one.

Damn.

The Holiday Inn Experience

2007-12-02T20:04:00.001+08:00

Ho my Lord the experience was both masaya and sobrang nakakapagod at the same time. PREQUEL!

Ms. Jing (our S.O.M. @ Rustan's Gateway) has tied-up with Holiday Inn for a Rustan Grand Sale and they've been so nice to give us three function rooms, one stockroom, one villa, and free food for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. So fastforward....

Amang was supposed to come with us to Pampanga kaso unfortunately nagka-sudden event pero mini lang naman din, while we're having a grand sale at The Holiday Inn, may midnight sale din sa Rustan Gateway (pero siyempre 20% off lang sa store, sa hotel hanggang 70-80% pa). So beat that ShoeMart. Anyways pagdating namin medyo masaya pa kasi we get to see every freaking item for sale and I was lucky enough to grab a piece of Heatherette pants (yes, they're for ladies pero to hell, I got a size 9 and it's better than buying tiangge's skinny jeans), an FCUK belt that has been slashed from P1,950 to P100, and a Heatherette leggings (na I'm using as boxers). anyways the leggings are really cool, it's a monogram of stars in different color and the base color is HOT PINK. Ang cool, sabi nga nila it's sooo me. I was suppose to buy this FCUK leather bracelet from P1k plus to P100.00 and I was suppose to give it to a certain somebody, somebody, pero nawaaallaaaaa...I swear I'm gonna kill whoever stole my coolies from me I really hate it. I'm gonna die na talaga kasi I swear nandun yun sa paperbag ko...It should be cursed from now on...whoever wears it has to die. Or at least kuko nila sa wrist na pagkakabitan nun..or something. I'm really gonna die na!!! I want it back it's suppose to be a pasalubong....

The adventure slash experience at The Holiday Inn was of course spiced up by my ka-edads (finally may nakasama rin akong mga bagets very much unlike the typical day @ work with oldies) namely Manix, Carmela and Elin. Elin was really funny. I thought the babaeng baklas myth was just a myth pero no...she did prove to me na they exist. My god...isa siyang nymph. Very bakla. Manix on the other hand is....hmmm..Manix-y. Yeah I do admit we do cross each other's blogs pero we haven't had that quality time pa, pero I did enjoy his existence. Yun nga lang ang koooolllleeettt!!!!! Sobra he's gonna give me a heart attack! Para kong nagkaroon ng sampung rascals screaming up and down the hall that I really wanna wreck. Wreck the halls ang drama not deck. Carmela was the usual Carmela na may moments. May moment na tahimik, may moment na nagbibiro, may moment na parang baliw. She reminds me of me...may sariling mundo. She must be an Aquarian...hmm...have to ask her.

Anyways, if not for them my Holiday Inn experience must be a BIG BORE. I miss them already. Despite the pagod and literally walang tulugan for two days, I had fun. For real. Hope this happens again. And again. And again.

Love, Rosie

2007-11-25T21:52:00.001+08:00

I am currently in love with the novel 'LOVE, ROSIE' (first published novel was entitled ROSIE DUNNE but unfortunately I couldn't find sa net an image of the re-published book but it's good eitherways) by Cecilia Ahern.

A must-read. Why? Kasi one, it's realy funny, and two, it's an easy-read (it's basically a novel about e-mails and love letters of Rosie to her bestfriend, daughter, family and friends, and there are even instant messages din in the same format as how it is presented in the net). It's a super-kilig experience talaga and I can't wait 'til I get to the very end (literally...ho yeah nandaya na nga pala ko, I've skipped to the last part of the book and found out na sa huli pa lang sila magkakatuluyan when they are already in their fifties). It's a must, oldie but goodie. Got it sa BookSale in Trinoma when I've went on leave. That place carries a lot of good books pala, I was lucky to find a copy of Dan Brown's 'Angels & Demons', in good condition pa, P180 lang. Should have bought Deception na rin pala darn it. Will definitely go back there next payday.

Anyways, other novels by Cecilia Ahern:
...P.S. I Love You
...If You Could See Me Now
...Where Rainbows End

Go grab your copies!

Shutting this mother-f*cking world up.

2007-11-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

I have found the greatest medication EVER when you want people to just f*ck off and leave your whining behind alone.

SHUT THE WORLD UP BY SHUTTING YOURSELF DOWN.

And I have been doing it for the longest time ever (and I do hope nobody from work's reading this.) I have decided to act as a normal persona wondering around the universe pretending not to know things that are surrounding him and letting people feed him the information and for the first time, not the other way around. I am so fed up of people who wants me to act what and how I should act, pero when you start acting accordingly, surprisingly, no one listens. I sometimes wonder, is 22 of age that young? Does 22 of age means I couldn't be trained well in school to be prepared for whatever could come along the way? Does the digits 22 doesn't intimidate anybody? If most answers are mostly NO then will somebody please give me 'The Idiot's Guide to Acting Your Role' for Christmas?

I do not mean to offend anybody, but I just want to puke it out of my system. I feel so stripped of my majika's and I wouldn't have it any other way. This is truly genius.

I want to be.....

2007-11-11T15:28:00.000+08:00

...Storm for a day...and hit somebody with a lightning bolt.

Or Wolverine....and make you deep throat my claws.

Or maybe AquaMan...and feed you to my piranhas.

Sino yun....I won't tell. Ask Kuya Er. :)

L-O-8

2007-11-11T14:40:00.000+08:00

1. Victoria Beck's hair the dos.

Yup, it's everywhere. On Ethel Booba (of PBB Celebrity Edition 2), on my pals, on Ate Minerva of Triumph, it's crazy and it's taking the world by storm! Anyways, I'm planning to do the hair na din after blogging. Ewan ko pero I'm sobrang obsessed with my bangs right now, ain't gonna let anybody touch it. And yeah, kahapon was the ugliest do I've ever had kasi my pirming iron got all sira thanks to my li'l sis. I was sobrang pissed talaga the whole day kasi when I'd see myself sa mirror, aaww! Ugliness in a fat man's belly.

Got to have a comeback. (And hoping my parlorista can replicate the look I am opting for. Ho puh-lease!)

2. Neons and colors.

Gotta have a shirt in every color. And so I did...and still doing it. I do not know where the hell Mr. Polo-and-Tucked-in-Shirt has gone, pero I am sobrang loving mixing and mismatching every hue in the color wheel. Neon-on-neon is the new pattern-on-pattern. And yeah, the neons and colors doesn't stop sa shirts of course. I am to collate statements on shirts and pants as well.

I do admit I am not updated on what's hip right now, pero whatever it is, to hell. I always create my own statements. And I do believe na that's the true gauge of being a fashionista.

3. Potato Chips for lunch.

Yeah I know, I'm trying to lose a lot of weight pero here I am munching on chips and a bottle of Rush Tropical Flavor (for lower calorie count) for lunch. I do not know why pero I have this crazy idea na it will make me leaner pag ito lang ang kinuhanan ko ng source of energy. Crazy right? What's new.

Anyways if you want to catch me during lunch, I'll be in Rustan's Supermarket buying a bag of French Onion Flavored Chip and a pack of Tourist Chocolate.

4. My NEW Phone.

And it's a Sony Ericsson Walkman phone. always been my dream to have any of the W Series and I think my debited account sa bangko was the sign. Yes, if I have to do another L-O-8 Session on blogspot it would be about the countinuously and sobrang usong nadedebit na account sa bangko. You see, I've withdrawn cash sa BPI pero I'm an Equitable-r, kaya ayun. Freaked me out a lot nang walang lumabas na money pero nabawasan balance ko. Yun pala ang nadebit.

Words of wisdom: Withdraw money from your own bangko lang. FOR LIFE!

Anyways, I saw this second hand phone called W701i phone sa Farmer's phone palengke on the fifth floor and I've instantly fell in love with it kasi one, it's a Walkman, and two, it's flip-top! My god it's perfect and not that expensive. Yeah...a bit more expensive than an iPod Nano (yung old version pa ha), pero it's the shi-hat believe I am sobrang loving it. It's a second hand pero it's all in good condition. The protective film on the screen is there pa nga up-to-date eh, so it just proves na naingatan siya ng nauna sa kin.

Love it, love it, love it. It's soo me. Stylish.

5. Necklaces.

After the phenomenal gigantic wood necklaces and bracelets in every style possible comes the newest craze: Necklace with rhinestoned pendants. As I always say, the bigger the better. I have a LOT na believe me and they're all so cute! As in lalo na yung bear and robot designs na I got sa F&H boutiques, my god they're the best. Tapos I bought din this big singsing in black na sobrang nice isuot pag out in a party. It's pang-girly pero again, to hell.

Necklaces with funky pendants are my new neckties. And yeah don't buy the cheap ones in tiangge. They're sobrang halatang low-quality. I was able to buy one from a tiangge pero it's still expensive. Stay away from those irritating designs na parang lata lang ng Coke na ginupit at dinikitan ng rhinestones. Eerrrr! Kainis sila sunugin na ang bigote ng gumagawa nun!

Questions, questions, questions...

2007-10-29T13:41:00.001+08:00

This on this would give me this ???

I wanna experiment on this super cheap shoes I saw in Araneta, they are sooper cheap talaga as in the cheapest you could think of, and I'm thinking of buying a lot then spray painting on them...Problem is on a personal experience, spray paint on tela sometimes doesn't look that good...Or maybe the answer's neon...Yeah siguro nga. For more intense coloring I'll buy the neon spray paints...Hmm...We'll see, we'll see...

Let's do this.

2007-10-29T13:21:00.001+08:00

Guess what's going on inside my cranium...

Yup, can't wait for tomorrow kasi tomorrow's not only swelday...it's also our 13th month bonus day. Yay! Super cheers for me kasi I wasn't able to get my mid-year bonus so tomorrow I'm gonna get a lot. My midyear na, 13th month pa, swerte pa kung kasabay din yung adjustment ko sa work...Woo-hoo! Milyonaryo here I come!

Magulo pa ang plans kung san ko gagamitin pero 1things for sure. Colorful and super bitin pants with super daming bulsa courtesy of my sastre. Plus a gazillion vests again courtesy of my sastre. Siyempre designs are all made by yours truly. Can't wait!

Patent belts are also lined up. I have one in blue, hahanapin ko mga kapatid niya. Saw kasi Jake Cuenca wearing one in hot pink, and soobrang nainggit ako so I went pa sa Ladies Department. Buti na lang may kasya sa kin.

There's this super gandang notebook in Rustan's Gift Pavillion. It goes for P500.00 pero it's sobrang sulit kasi it has a refill pa. Tinago talaga namin nila Ms. Monch lahat ng notebook na yun sa VMD Merchandise to buy tomorrow.

And then there's Kat and mom whom I'm gonna take shopping sa Trinoma on Wednesday. Love it love it love it. This is really cool. Then it's bakasyon pa on Nov.1-2, from what I've heard.

Hay...life in the fast lane...

Me & my colored pens.

2007-10-29T13:05:00.000+08:00

Call me crazy, call me abnormal, pero right now all I want to do is write, write, write using my newly bought ballpens. Ewan ko ba pero I've been sobrang obsessed with gel pens in funky colors. I almost have it all, glittered, neon, green, sky blue, everything. Wala lang this just proves how baliw I am. What can I do. I'm an static soul. :)

Favorite time of the day.

2007-10-19T15:41:00.000+08:00

MERIENDA!!!

The time when I get to forget everything and anything that pains me and all I get to do is laugh trip with Kuya Er sa office while tingling our senses with 1Liter of C2 Apple for me, and Lemon for him, and a hell lot of any-any, or in layman's definition: anything that we see and feel like eating either expensive or cheap.

Only this time, I'm gonna spend it with my mom and sis since I'm stuck here in bed.

Can't wait for tomorrow. Goodbye hatred, goodbye users. I'm a new me.

Damn I'm complicated.

2007-10-19T15:04:00.000+08:00

People change. And I'm totally hating it.

I do admit na ang daming nagbago and still changing in my life. Yeah siyempre not just mine, pero I do want to be generic this time around. Sometimes I don't get it why people just change overnight. How could that happen. One day your somebody's friend and then the next hindi ka na sigurado. Is it because rumors has been a constant part of our life na ba? Or is it because I have become a very much sought after controversial person whom I do not want to be? Is it because one gets more attention than the other that's why you define social status as something that adopts to your status? But then again I must be overthinking stuffs na naman as usual...

It's depressing how work has eaten a lot of my social life, and when I do get the chance to mingle parang lagi na lang akong bago. A friend of mine texted me one day implying (and let me quote this one for you guys kasi this is sobrang educational):

"Repeated experiences have one aim....

...to teach you what you refuse to learn."

Then yeah..maybe I always refuse to accept the fact na your friend will never be forever your friend. It's really depressing after all these time na the people whom you've grown with and have thought to be 'the one' (in a non-relationship kinda like 'the one') are just a bunch of lying fools waiting for the right time to transform you as one of their excess baggage.

As I've burnt in my book a lot of times, what is a friend anyways.

And yeah. I've been burning a lot. And that is not a good thing. You see when you'd encounter me all curled up in a corner writing on a small notebook, yeah. I'm burning. Burning all my stress, burning all my evilness, burning everything that causes imbalance in my life and trying to ground everything so I could be a true source of goodness and lightness. Burning a lot denotes me having a lot of negativity inside. And it pains. A lot.

Again I am wondering how could all of these happen in such short span of time. Parang imposible...or maybe I'm being the typical Aquarian na naman who believes we're all living in a perfect world...

Whichever way it goes, I hope I could go and get transferred to a new world. I'm so damn tired of this one.

Im sick...literally.

2007-10-19T14:35:00.000+08:00

After a super long while of not being affected by the flu, here I am waking up in the morning super masakit ang bawat muscle sa katawan, and my ubo, my god parang mas maginhawa pang i-pound ang baga ko ng meat tenderizer. I wasn't able to go to work today and fortunately natahimik muna kami for a while sa overnights sa Makati.

Woke up around 1in the afternoon and yeah, may sinat pa rin so I have to take Tylenol na naman na sobrang ginogroggy ako, f*ck all medications that are sobrang effective. They always make you feel dizzy. First time I've watched PBB Celebrity Edition2 on Studio23 and gosh they're so freaking boring. Thank goodness they're all goodlooking.

Hay life in VMD...matira talaga matibay. Unfortunately hindi ako kasama dun sa matitibay na yun. I mean come on for 2weeks hindi na kami halos natutulog, then pagbalik sa store go for the gold pa rin sa tons and tons of work! Yesterday nga sobrang sneeze ako ng sneeze sa Gateway then this stooopid and madaldal and maingay na supervisor lang naman ng Aerosole was telling me:

'...hoo grabe ka para kang laging pagod wala naman kayong ginagawa..'

The FU*CK TALAGA! I really hate her! You know what someday makikita niya lahat ng pinagdadaldal niyang yan. Can I really f*cking f*ck her off eh ang trabaho lang naman niya the whole day is magbenta ng sapatos while us, we have to be artistic, we have to be logical, we have to be perfect kasi the store owner's really depending on us A LOT. As in when it comes to ayos ng store kami lagi ang hinahanap so we have to be the best, tapos hindi na nga kami natutulog ganun pa ang ibabanat sayo? I wish someday ma-experience ng buong store ang na-eexperience namin. Then tell that freaking phrase ulit to my freaking a**hole.

Hay...mabibinat ako. Madalas na nga kong maging masungit even here sa blog I have to be masungit. My gosh naman what's happening to the world...

Bwahaha! ZZzzz....

2007-10-18T13:53:00.000+08:00

Bored. Here @ Netopia downloading files for our store. Mga SKU's blah blah blah with Ms. Jing. Pero she's at Dunkin' so I'm grabbing a moment at Blogspot.

Har! :)

She's paying naman eh.

Double har!

Metamorphosis

2007-10-14T18:08:00.001+08:00

This is a reminder for me to dream big and don't let dramas get in the way as long as your conscience is clear.

Things are about to change my dears.

Tiredness days are here to stay...

2007-10-14T17:51:00.000+08:00

Again.

Darn.

Whole week we've been working on our Makati store. One, for enhancement, and two, for Christmas. Ang mas nakakapagod pang isipin is one, we're working on store enhancement for Children's and Home Department and two, we're gonna work on Christmas for Children's and Home, and three, we'll work on Gateway Christmas. So all-in-all...malamang patay na ko by the year 2012. Dadaanan ko muna celebration namin sa USTe by 2011. Har!

Kahapon Collete called me up (Happy birthday btw!!! :) She was inviting me to her place kasi she's having a mini-celebration, eh kahapon hanggang past 4 in the morning kami...Sigh...my entire batch's gonna be there and here I am stuck at work...Double sigh...And it was a Saturday night...Triple sigh...

Pero seriously, kahit sobrang pagod na I still feel super proud to be a part of this division kasi imagine we're given sobrang short span of deadline and still we get to create and show the world na magic is not only found in fairy tales. It's for real.

TOPMAN SALE!!!

2007-10-14T17:39:00.000+08:00

Go grab it 'til supplies last!!!

Pero actually, I wasn't able to buy any from their sale rack kasi they're all in humongous sizes na lang. Napagpilian na since Day1. Pero the sale's gonna go on naman daw until the end of the month so may dadating pa niyan. God you have got to love Topman, it's like my next semi-high end version of F&H, funky with an edge.

Was able to buy this neon yellow shirt that's accident friendly. Pag ako natabunan ng lupa madali akong mahanap. Don't even get me started pag dumilim.

Protesta ng Bayan: ITIGIL ANG KALOKOHAN.

2007-10-07T20:35:00.001+08:00

I've been constantly telling and engraving on Kuya Erwin's mind never to negotiate with things that are pwede na, always BEST QUALITY never KASI YUN NA LANG ANG MERON EH. I hope I made that clear kasi I do not want to create a team whereas people goes with whatevers and not innovation. Yup, the term is INNOVATION my dears, NEVER TECHNICALITY. Techniques are for karpinteros and the likes, pero innovation, it's for people like me. Designers.

If I could spend a day with a person whom I'd tell everything that I plan for this Christmas my god, mapapagod ka sa dami ng naiisip ko. I'd pay him extra kasi hindi talaga magkakasya in one day lahat ng gusto kong mangyari. I only have one goal lang naman in my professional life eh. Be the bestest artist slash designer that I could be. And I hope I inspire my ka-teams with that. I only sceam one thing everytime naiinis ako with people that hinders greatness and excellence.

ITIGIL ANG KALOKOHAN!!!

Mr. Harajuku no more.

2007-10-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

Yes I do admit I could no longer fit in my clothes na and so I am out again doing the no-eating diet and what a bummer it is to not see chocolates and chips on my room na uli...God...Anyways I can no longer be Mr. Harajuku with the funky outfits, super colorful and contrasting patterns and hues kasi for now, I am under repair. I am now Mr. Preppy, with the cardigans and a gazillion neckties to match it with. Badtrip nga lang naging maaraw kasi I've bought like...4-5 jackets, cardigans and wool, last week kasi naging maulan those days. Plus, ang daling magtago sa jacket ng fats.

Ho yuck kadiri ang flirt ko, I suddenly remember na I am now connecting with the cutie sales associates sa Gateway. God I love them all! It's actually a challenge for me kasi now I have to be a fashionista and a fatso at the same time. It really is a make it work time.

B&W Party @ Government

2007-10-07T19:42:00.000+08:00

We are sobrang fortunate to meet John, one of the organizers in Government bar. How did that happen? Every Saturday pala he's the gay guy na nandun sa office namin wearing the bumblebee shades and hot pants renting props for the bar. Eversince day one na nanghiram siya sa amin he's been inviting Ate She na to drop by Gov't. eh yesterday tinopak siya and Boss Ferds so ayun, connect-connect. Boss Ferds texted me, I texted Daria and Janice. Unfortunately, Janice couldn't come. Anyways, the point is, we are sobrang lucky to have an insider sa Government Bar kasi now, we could always get in free. Bwahaha! Pwera abuso of course.

Anyways the place is full of cuties and my eyes, my god parang pinya! Hanggang likuran ko nakikita ko. It was such an experience pero what bothered me was one, I have a big bag with me na iniwan ko lang sa bar, without any number, with a lot of risk losing it. Two was Boss Ferds whom I know doesn't like parties like this. Ang aga nga niyang nagyayang umuwi eh. Anyways I can't blame my sis. Ganun siya eh. Next time, I'll be prepared for the peeps at Gov't. Pokpok shorts, boa, and a fedora.

John was nice he's offered us drinks, pero siyempre patweetums kami so we let him decide what to give us. I think it was Bubblegum Lambanog on the rocks, which was semi-good, and semi-weird. Ang lakas ng tama sa kin. Not so so, pero the funky taste lingering makes me a bit drowsy na biniyak ang ulo ko nung pauwi nako.

Daria was fun to be with pero nakakatakot kasi ayaw namin siyang malasing. Even me naman I don't wanna drink na ever kasi one, madali and masama akong malasing kasi I turn notorious and flirtatious when I'm drunk and two, I can't fit in my clothes na anymore. (Yes friends I am again killing myself to the no-eating diet.) I really wanna go back sa bar with Daria, and hopefully next time kasama na si Janice. My pokpok sis' whom I love so much.

Til then. Whatever happened in Government Bar, sheesh sorry guys, only me will know. ; )

Rustan's Gateway Window

2007-09-16T19:01:00.001+08:00

You should see what the Rustan's Gateway VMD Team has got for our windows. I'm not telling! Go see it for yourself! :)

Kidding. Will post pictures as soon as I can. If I can.